Relationship Thoughts

After my over 2 decades of existence, I feel like I contemplated more about the idea of relationships and male and female interaction over any other topic (with religion in a close second). That said, the older I get, the less this idea of a "relationship" becomes understood. When I was young it was more of a pure ideal that two people would meet and fall in love; from there they would help each other wanting nothing but the best for their significant other. Since then I have experienced and observed things that couldn't be farther from the truth. Some are sex based, co-dependency based, social pressure based, money based, etc.

With that said, what does one do when a truly pure relationship presents itself, but the timing and logistics are so wrong that it seems to hold one person back? The caveman in my brain reverts to its base function with a resounding "Fuck her, find a back up with more appropriate logistics, and move to the next girl". The side that has morals and deep thought suggests "fuck the norm, commit to the road and see where it leads".

As I think about the truth of the situation, I see that the middle ground is easiest, without commitment to either. Maybe a better man would commit to his emotions. Maybe a stronger man would bail on the relationship and fulfill the need to have countless sexual encounters.

I am neither yet so I will commit to no path and try to find one in the middle without neglecting both sides of my personality.


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